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The Diagnosis: When My World Split in Two
July 2025.
Five words: “You have breast cancer.”
Time stopped. The room blurred. In that second, my life divided into before and after.
Walking into my home afterward felt eerie. Everything was the same, yet utterly changed. The sunlit kitchen, the worn sofa, the pencil marks on the wall —they were no longer just parts of my home. They had become precious artifacts, evidence of a life I was terrified of losing.
Then I saw him—my son, laughing, completely unaware. A raw truth hit me: There is no “later.” Life is happening now. We waste so much time waiting for the right moment, postponing our joy, forgetting that tomorrow is a promise to no one.
In the silence of my shock, two voices cut through—my mother and brother. They didn’t offer pity. They spoke with conviction:
“You will be fine.”
“You will live the life you planned.”
“You will give hope to others.”
Then, my brother added the words that became my anchor: “The toughest battles are given to the strongest soldiers.”
They reminded me who I was. But I soon learned a harder truth: while love from others is a lifeline, the deepest healing requires building an inner fortress. You must become your own strongest support when the night feels endless.
In my faith, this life is called Dunya—a temporary, fleeting arena. It’s our one chance to feel deeply, fight bravely, and love without limits. The very pain of that day proved I was alive, that I had something precious worth fighting for.
The diagnosis shattered my world. But in the cracks, I found a resolve I never knew I had. I decided then: if this is my one life, I will not hide from it. I will live it—fully, fiercely, and without regret.
My Healing Protocol: The Science, The Voices & My Personal Timeline
Navigating Uncharted Waters: An Introduction to Repurposing
Before I detail my personal regimen, this context is crucial: my approach involves drug repurposing—using existing, approved medications for new purposes. For conditions like cancer, this is an emerging, patient-driven frontier, not standard medical care. It represents a search for low-toxicity, accessible strategies, but it is experimental. What follows is my personal record, grounded in my research and hope, but it is not medical advice. Every decision was made with the understanding that I am navigating without a complete map.
The Guiding Voices: Why I Considered This Path
My research led me to a community of patients and a niche group of researchers and doctors whose perspectives shaped my understanding:
- The Patient Pioneer (Joe Tippens): His story of terminal small-cell lung cancer remission using fenbendazole, shared on his blog, became a beacon of grassroots hope for thousands. He proved the power of a patient’s own rigorous investigation.
- The Academic Research (Dr. Gregory Riggins, Johns Hopkins): His seminal 2018 review in Nature provided the scientific backbone. It concluded that mebendazole (related to fenbendazole) has strong lab evidence against multiple cancers by disrupting cell division, starving tumors of glucose, and inhibiting blood vessel growth.
- The Clinical Perspective (Dr. Kathleen Ruddy, Breast Cancer Surgeon): She offers a balanced, “do no harm” viewpoint, openly discussing these options with patients. She acknowledges the compelling anecdotes and plausible science, while emphasizing the need for clinical trials and using them as potential adjuncts, not replacements.
- The Advocacy Voice (Dr. William Makis): An oncologist who actively advocates for repurposed drugs like ivermectin and fenbendazole, analyzing patient data and providing specific protocols. His hopeful messaging and clear protocols resonate deeply within patient communities, though his views are considered outside the mainstream.
- The Research Movement (The ReDO Project, led by Dr. Pan Pantziarka): This group systematically identifies cheap, safe drugs with anti-cancer evidence, championing mebendazole/fenbendazole as a prime candidate for formal study. Their work gave me confidence in the scientific plausibility.
The Scientific Rationale Behind My Choices
My protocol combines approaches from several pioneering researchers:
Fenbendazole/Mebendazole: Inspired by Dr. Gregory Riggins’ Johns Hopkins research showing these anti-parasitics disrupt cancer cell microtubules (similar to some chemotherapies), inhibit glucose uptake, and may restore tumor-suppressor function. Patient pioneer Joe Tippens’ remarkable remission story gave me hope, while breast cancer specialist Dr. Kathleen Ruddy’s balanced perspective helped me approach it rationally.
Ivermectin: Following research cited by Dr. William Makis and others showing it may induce cancer cell death (apoptosis), inhibit cancer growth pathways (PAK1 inhibition), and reduce inflammation—a known cancer promoter.
Metabolic Approach: Aligning with Dr. Thomas Seyfried’s metabolic theory, I maintain a low-glycemic, anti-inflammatory diet to create an internal environment hostile to cancer cells but nourishing to healthy ones.
The Repurposing Movement: My approach reflects the work of the ReDO Project (Repurposing Drugs in Oncology), which systematically identifies safe, existing drugs with anti-cancer potential.
The Unified Caution from All Corners: There are no large-scale, gold-standard human trials proving these drugs cure cancer. Anecdotes inspire hypotheses; they are not definitive data. I entered this space with clear-eyed realism.
My Personal Protocol: A Living Timeline
Informed by these voices and the proposed science—that these drugs may disrupt cancer cell structures, starve them of sugar, and trigger cell death—I built my protocol. It has evolved through phases of careful observation and adaptation.
Core Medications (Daily)
- Fenbendazole: 222mg daily
(Taken as a substitute for Mebendazole due to availability. Both are believed to potentially disrupt cancer cell structures.) - Ivermectin: 48mg daily
*(Dose based on my 48kg weight. Research suggests potential anti-inflammatory and anti-proliferative effects.)* - Administration: All medications are taken with MCT Oil to enhance absorption.
Daily Supplement Stack
Metabolic & Digestive Support:
- Berberine: 500mg, three times daily (replaced Metformin for natural glucose metabolism support)
- Organika Digestive Enzymes: Three times daily with meals
- TUDCA: 250mg, three times daily with meals (for liver and cellular health)
Immune & Anti-Inflammatory Foundation:
- Vitamin D3: 10,000 IU with K2, daily
- Selenium: 100mcg, daily
- Zinc: 50mg, daily
- Turmeric: 320mg, daily
- Artemisinin: 505mg, daily
- Magnesium: 250mg, daily
Current Status: An Honest Assessment
This is the most vulnerable and hopeful space—tracking the subtle, daily shifts in my body. I document this with complete honesty, for myself and for anyone who needs to see what real, non-linear healing looks like.
Physical Changes & Observations
The Primary Lump:
After my first full month on the protocol, the most significant early milestone was this: the lump stopped growing. The progression halted. Now, week by week, day by day, I can feel a gradual softening. The defined, hard edges have begun to recede. It feels slightly smaller, and persistently softer. While there have been no dramatic, overnight changes, this quiet, consistent retreat feels like the most profound victory.
Sensations & Signals:
I experience occasional sharp, lightning-quick pains that come and go in moments. Alongside these, I notice small, pea-sized bumps that appear transiently under the skin near the site, only to disappear within a day or two. I do not fear these sensations. In the context of my protocol, I choose to interpret them as signs of active engagement—my immune system recognizing and addressing irregularities, or the breakdown of unhealthy cellular structures.
Overall Well-being:
Beyond the specific site, my energy is more stable. The mental fog that often accompanies both illness and fear has lifted significantly. I sleep more deeply. There is a tangible, quiet strength returning to my body—a resilience I feel in my bones.
The Emotional & Spiritual Terrain
This physical journey is mirrored by an inner one. The initial terror has metabolized into a focused determination. The question “What if I don’t make it?” has slowly been replaced with “What will I do with my healing?”
There are still hard days—moments of doubt, waves of fatigue, the ache of being a single mother carrying this weight. But they no longer define the landscape. A deeper peace, forged in faith and the daily practice of surrender, has become my foundation.
My two sacred goals remain my compass:
- To be cancer-free.
- To achieve lasting metabolic balance.
Every softness in the lump, every day of clear-minded energy, feels like a step on the path toward both.
Moving Forward: Guarded Hope & Active Participation
I hold this progress with guarded hope and profound gratitude. I am not passive in this process. I am an active participant—measuring, adjusting, listening, and believing.
This status is a snapshot in an ongoing story. I will update it with the same transparency, whether the news is of continued softening or of new challenges. This is the real, unedited journey of one woman fighting for her life and learning to live it more fully than ever before.
My Stance: A Tool in the Toolbox
I embarked on this path after exhaustive research. For me, it represents a low-toxicity, metabolically-targeted strategy I can control alongside other holistic changes. The work of the ReDO Project gave me scientific confidence; the stories from communities following Dr. Makis gave me communal hope.
However, I maintain clear-eyed realism. I monitor myself closely. This protocol is one tool in a vast toolbox—integrated with diet, stress management, spiritual practice, and medical monitoring. My goals are clear: to be cancer-free and to achieve hormonal balance. I use every resource at my disposal toward that end.
My journey is a personal log, not a prescription. The doctors referenced hold diverse and often non-consensus views. You must consult your own oncology team before considering any experimental protocol. This is a profound and personal decision, made at the intersection of hope, science, and self-advocacy.
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